Seeping into the folds of our beating hearts.


Take 1.Take 2.


Today's detention is a waste, a waste of my time.
I don't understand why must the world be completely black & white. Why must you take the past so personally, & hate people you never know. Do me a favor. Go curl up in a dark corner, & once you're there, die. It'll make my day. You don't get it. You can't get it. You won't get it. You never bloody will.
I doubt we'll ever stand together again but I'll forever think of you, whenever I enter that town.
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We are the only thing keeping this now-sinking world afloat.



Everyone is walking on the streets of life. A huge crowd of people, each with their own stories. Always moving, going further, always on their way. Stop, quit your movements & watch people passing by instead. Close your eyes & be alone with yourself. Listen to your own breath & the beating of your heart. Everything is a mystery.
You can barely understand yourself, let alone anyone else. Life without lies, who was I fooling? Good girl, bad girl; Two different people. I wonder if really you knew : who was who.
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Those dillusional thoughts taking over your head.

One moment you are convinced it's real, it has to be.
The next you're unsure. Maybe it's all in your head.
So should I let my desire take over,
Or let the logic be in control?

I wish I could just capture all the memories & lock them in a jar.
Right now I can't wait to go to sleep. I h8 to see those funny bumper stickers on cars. haha What a joke! Uhhh tablespoons are missing & I couldn't believe someone threw it to the bin thinking it was plastic spoons. I really need to head out to the mall solo, & get some new books. I think I'll give school a miss tomorrow. If only someone refuses to go too. More than half a day in an air-con room isn't a joke. How I wish that there were not a sore throat & this wretched runny nose pain. How I wish that I was in somewhere else entirely. I want to wake up in a city that never sleeps. & maybe meet some interesting people at the train station or on the train. Dull dull dull. I've been staring at nothing but honestly, sometimes I just love being numb for a moment.
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The rainbow cascading kind, a lullaby of whispered words & promises.

Young at heart.



Uhhh four new zits. Stupid ugly zits. My worst nightmare. Red & bulging on my face. Cream is slathered all over my face. If it is not gone by morning, I must fake sick. This place is flooded with pretty gaymen. haha Gaymen gaymen.
One photo brings back a pack of memories, how you tried to resist, how I just wanted to please.
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Together we lie on lilac flowers & jade shoots.

In less than a day, I'll be looking at passers by & drift into sleep & wake because some stranger in front of me stinks & couldn't shut his/her mouth off, & a not-so-blue sky. In the old run down bus with seats that are old, ragged & torn. Dirt roads & lost thoughts. I bet it's going to be so depressing . Everyone will be fallen fast asleep while depressing thoughts will fill my mind causing me to be wide awake. Still, it's such a privilege.
It's been eight long, hard years. No days like the next few days. I feel so small in this big old place. I don't wna spend my life wasted, jaded.
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Our voices will resonate throughout the air.



Life goes from being lived with great suffering, to being continued in ease when we realized that that we have absolutely nothing more to lose. I feel so alone. Seperated from others. It isn't ever happening for me.
I want you here. You're stuck in ma head. This can't even explain how much. Sniffleeees. No doubt, as you just rock my mind. Somebody help me, I'm writing like a maniac.
Emotions all spilt out.
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A hello with my hat dipped to one side.

My results are going to have red marks all over the page. Wish I had cheated.
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